Blink-182's Mark Hoppus Reveals He Contemplated Suicide During His Cancer Battle

"The chemotherapy was brutal," Mark told People. "I had no energy and ended up being on the couch just trying to get through the day," he says. "I had the worst brain fog. We were sitting at dinner with friends that we've known for years, and I'm looking at the husband across the table, thinking to myself, 'I can't remember your first name.' And it was like that all the time. I still feel it once every couple days — I'll forget a word — but it's much better."

"I was in our living room crying and telling my wife, 'I don't know if I can do this,'" Mark recalled. "She was like, 'Well, what are you going to do, kill yourself?' And that's exactly what I was thinking. It was pretty dark."

"It was a total snap-out-of-it moment," Mark said. "I was like, 'What a[expletive] thing to say.' But also, what a kind thing to say, like, 'Snap out of it, you [expletive] baby. You have a beatable form of cancer. It's going to suck to get there, but get there.' I had to do the work."

"She researched all the best foods, like, 'This helps with the nausea, and this helps with the dehydration, and this helps with the recovery,'" he said. "My wife was awesome from day one."

Mark announced he was cancer-free in September of 2021.

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h/t: People