Billie Eilish has always been super private about her life.
That’s exactly how she hid her relationship with rapper Brandon Adams, also known as 7:AMP. But now that the pair are no longer together, the singer is giving fans a rare glimpse into what once was.
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Keep reading to see what Billie had to say about their relationship, plus the reasons it ended.
In a lot of ways, Billie Eilish is unlike any 19-year-old.
She has already accomplished more in her career than other artists do in a lifetime, including winning five Grammys at the 2020 Grammys.
She achieved mega-fame overnight at the age of 14 and frequently rubs shoulders with some of the world’s biggest celebs.
But in some ways, she’s *exactly* like any other 19-year-old.
She experiments with dying her hair all sorts of colors, grew up with a Justin Bieber poster on her wall, and she’s super close to her family.
She’s also quite similar to her peers in the love department.
The singer recently opened up about this in a rare account for her documentary for Apple TV+.
At the beginning of *Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry*, fans see that she was in a relationship with a rapper named Brandon Adams.
He goes by the stage name 7:AMP, but Billie just calls him “Q.”
Viewers got to see a soft side of Billie, as she tells Q that she’s in love with him.
There were other sweet moments, like when he asks her to style his hair a certain way before her Coachella performance.
She then starts singing “All the Good Girls Go to Hell” to him as a way to practice the lyrics.
But things between them weren’t always smooth-sailing.
Viewers got to see the breakdown of their relationship in several accounts.
That sweet moment at Coachella, for instance, turned sour when Eilish forgot the lyrics to “All the Good Girls Go to Hell” onstage.
This mishap even made headlines afterward. The situation caused the singer to understandably get upset.
But when she calls her boyfriend for comfort, he doesn’t exactly deliver.
“Can you come here?” she asks him.
“Can’t you see me?” You see her get visibly more upset, as she says, “What do you mean, ‘try?'” before hanging up the phone and throwing it on the floor.
In another scene, Q breaks his hand after hitting a wall.
“I’m trying to get him to go to therapy. He’s so self-destructive,” she explains to a friend.
Valentine’s Day — aka one of the most romantic days of the year — doesn’t go much better.
That’s because Q didn’t get her anything for Valentine’s Day.
“Haven’t gotten anything,” Billie says. “And the night before, he’d been really weird and distant and [expletive].”
She then reveals that Q is going on a trip with his friends. “I was just like, ‘You know what? Have fun. Don’t worry about me,” she says.
“I’m miserable, and I miss you, and I wish you would talk to me, and I have no one else to talk to.'”
By the end of the documentary, the pair have broken up.
“I just wasn’t happy. I didn’t want the same things he wanted and I don’t think that’s fair for him,” Billie explained in the doc.
“I don’t think you should be in a relationship super excited about things that the other person couldn’t care less about,” Eilish continued.
She went on to say that that’s not fair to anyone.
“There was just a lack of effort. I was literally like, ‘Dude, you don’t have enough love to love yourself so you can’t love me, dude.”
Despite this, Billie revealed that she still loves him.
“I’m not over him, I didn’t find someone else,” she added. “I didn’t stop having love for him.” She then concluded by saying that she worries for him all of the time.
“I don’t want to fix him. I can’t fix him. I tried.”
Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry is out now on Apple TV+.
