Jessica Simpson is baring all.
In her new memoir, Open Book, the singer just revealed that she had two tummy tucks due to her struggles with body image.
TW: This article contains depictions or discussions of eating disorders and substance abuse and may be triggering to some readers.
She's been baring all lately, including how she was sexually abused at a young age and how she took diet pills for 20 years straight.
"He wanted to sign me," she wrote in her memoir. "And then he said, 'You gotta lose fifteen pounds.'"
Soo not okay.
He responded by [saying]https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/pdominguez/taylor-swift-miss-americana-jessica-simpson-open-book), "That's what it will take to be Jessica Simpson."
Poor thing.
"I started to hear voices when I was alone at night, waiting for the sleeping pill to kick in: 'Do more sit-ups, fat [expletive],'" she said.
"By the time we got to the release of my second album's first single, 'Irresistible,' I was down to 103 pounds. Everyone went on about how great I looked, but I couldn't enjoy it because I was so freaking hungry."
For example, the singer revealed that she's had two tummy tucks, despite her doctor warning her not to.
"The surgery wasn’t for weight loss," she said.
"I weighed 107 pounds when I planned the surgery. I wanted to get rid of the stretch marks and loose skin left sagging from my back-to-back pregnancies."
"I was so ashamed of my body at this point that I wouldn't let Eric see me without a white T-shirt on. I had sex with it on and even showered with it on. I couldn't bear to look at myself." she said.
"He was direct. My plastic surgeon may have approved me for the surgery in two weeks, but he would not."
“I told Eric. We were in a sort of shared spiral, both of us in denial about how much we were drinking,” she writes of telling her husband of the doctor’s comment. “I’m sure we were wasted when we talked about it.”
"When I got home, I cut down on everything, like someone cramming for a test. I disregarded what my doctor said and kept the surgery date."
“There was a sense that something was going to go wrong from the get-go, even though I stopped drinking to prepare,” she wrote.
“The day of the surgery, Eric was puking his guts out because he was so nervous.”
“I got an infection — colitis — and was vomiting so much I thought I was going to bust my sutures. My mom and Eric were so worried."
"They had to rush me to Cedars, and I secretly stayed there for nine days. Doctors talked seriously about me needing a blood transfusion.”
He "loved me at any size or shape, even if I couldn’t." That's love, people.
Open Book is available now.
